The 24 emotions of making a painting
when I can’t come up with something to paint
When all of a sudden an idea comes to me
When I try to think of how the hell am I going to translate that into a painting
When I finally figure out a way to do it
Right before I start and wonder if I can actually pull this one off
When I stare at the white canvas and get completely overwhelmed and wonder if I should just take a nap
When my brush touches the surface and I feel like I just ruined a perfectly good canvas, therefore I’m no good and should never paint again.
When I think “what the hell. it’s already ruined, so I might as well finish it up”
When the messed up piece starts to look like it’s not completely ruined after all
When it actually seems to be working
When I look at it and see that it turned into shit again (A.K.A. the “this is shit phase”)
When I look at it and think, crap I did this (A.K.A. the “I’m shit phase”)
When I decide that cleaning the garage is really more important than dedicating time to a painting that its clearly not working.
When I come back to it and see that taking a break from it actually made it better (that, or there are some tricky oompa loompas hiding in my studio somewhere)
When I look at the clock and wonder how could the last 10 hours have passed so fast.
When I realized I haven’t eaten in the last 10 hours
When I realize I should have gone to bed a long time ago
When I look at the painting again in the morning
When I think that NOW I’m really going to screw this one up
When I realized that I did screwed this up for good and decide I didn’t clean the garage as well as I should have.
When (after cleaning the garage) I look at it again and think that it’s actually not that bad.
Maybe I do have some oompa loompas hiding in my studio. Or maybe that cleaning the garage is the key to making a painting work…
When I look at it after a week went by and I don’t feel like trashing it anymore.
When someone else looks at it and it moves them. When I feel connected with another human being, even though no words were exchanged
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